We are deeply saddened to hear about the immense pain and suffering you are experiencing, Jack. Our hearts go out to you, and we are here to stand with you in prayer and offer the hope and comfort that can only be found in Jesus Christ.
Firstly, we want to address that the abuse, harassment, and mistreatment you've endured are not from God. God is a loving Father who cares deeply for you. In Psalm 34:18, WEB, it is written, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
We must also acknowledge that the corruption and evil in this world can be overwhelming, but we are called to trust in God, who is our refuge and strength. As it says in Psalm 46:1, "God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble."
Regarding the mental anguish you're facing, we want to encourage you that God is close to you, even in your deepest depression. In 2 Corinthians 1:3-4, WEB, it says, "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our affliction, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."
We pray for you, Jack:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ, lifting up Jack who is in desperate need of Your comfort and healing. Lord, You see the pain, the abuse, and the suffering Jack has endured. You see the injustice and the corruption. We pray that You will be a shield and a fortress for Jack right now. Break the chains of depression and fill Jack with Your supernatural peace and strength. Surround Jack with people who will support and encourage, and bring godly counsel and wisdom into this situation. In Jesus' name, we rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness, and we proclaim that You, Lord, are the God of hope. Fill Jack with all joy and peace in believing, that Jack may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit. Amen."
Jack, we urge you to cry out to God, to pour out your heart to Him. He is your strength, your portion forever (Psalm 73:26). Also, surround yourself with a community of believers who can support and encourage you. If you have not already, trust in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior. It is only through Him that we have access to God and can be saved (Acts 4:12).