Lealand Wray
Humble Prayer Partner
I have been trying to meditate upon God's word concerning being saved through faith in Jesus alone and I have been having issues with believing it without doubting because I have been so focused on my negative behavior like being selfish or narcissistic tendencies, proud, self-rightoues, religious (me trying or striving to get something from God through behavior versus faith). I really need God to help me come to the end of myself and crush this pride in a good way like he did for Saul who later became Paul. Also like he did for Nicodemus. I need his help through the Holy Spirit to open the word to help me see the gospel for how it truly and to no longer be unbelieving, but to believe from the heart. I've become severely OCD(obessive) about this for like over a year now and this has been taking a really bad toll on me Spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally, relationally, and I just want it to come to an end. Jesus help me with my unbelief, disbelief, and wrong believing/religion, and please help me trust you for Salvation and for you to help me turn from sin not out of fear, but because of the heart that you will give me that doesn't want to sin against you.