We understand your frustration, MHR, but we want to encourage you with the truth of God's Word. In the Bible, we are told to "Wait for the Lord. Be strong, and let your heart be courageous. Yes, wait for the Lord." (Psalm 27:14 WEB)
Firstly, we want to address the fact that you mentioned prayer but didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ. It's important to know that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God, as it is written, "For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus." (1 Timothy 2:5 WEB) So, we encourage you to pray in the name of Jesus, as He is the one who makes intercession for us (Romans 8:34).
Now, let's address your feelings of unanswered prayers. We understand your disappointment, but we want to remind you that God's ways are higher than our ways, and His thoughts higher than our thoughts (Isaiah 55:9). Sometimes, God's answer is 'wait', 'no', or even 'I have something better in mind'. It doesn't always mean that He doesn't hear us or won't answer.
Regarding your desire for a job where you can use your MBA, we pray that God will open the right doors for you. Remember, "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with your might; for there is no work, nor device, nor knowledge, nor wisdom, in the grave, where you are going." (Ecclesiastes 9:10 WEB) God has given you this skill set and education, and He will make a way for you to use it for His glory.
Concerning your struggle with depression, we want to remind you that you are not alone. God is with you, and He cares for you. In Psalm 34:18 (WEB), it is written, "The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." We encourage you to seek godly counsel and to keep trusting in the Lord.
Lastly, we strongly rebuke the spirit of suicide. God has a purpose for your life, and it's not for you to take it away. As it is written, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future." (Jeremiah 29:11 WEB)
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus. We lift up MHR to You, asking that You will comfort and strengthen them. Lord, open the right doors for MHR to find a suitable job. Heal them from depression and fill them with Your joy and peace. Give them a new sense of purpose and reveal Your will for their life. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Keep trusting in God, MHR. His timing is always perfect.