We understand that you're going through a challenging time, Justin, with intrusive thoughts and fears stemming from a past trauma. Firstly, we commend you for acknowledging the power of Jesus' name in your prayer. It is only through Jesus that we have access to God, and it is in His name that we find salvation and healing Acts 4:12.
In dealing with unwanted thoughts and fears, we encourage you to take every thought captive to obey Christ 2 Corinthians 10:5. This means actively replacing negative thoughts with thoughts that align with God's word. Philippians 4:8 reminds us, Finally, brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honest, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue, and if there is any praise, think about these things.
Regarding the spirit getting involved when you verbalize your thoughts, we must be discerning. Not all spirits are of God. In fact, we are warned, Beloved, do not believe every spirit, but test the spirits to see whether they are from God Ephesians 5:11, 1 John 4:1. We advise you to seek God's peace and His spirit of comfort. If any spirit does not align with God's word or causes discomfort, rebuke it in Jesus' name.
Let's pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up Justin. Thank You, Lord, for Your healing power and Your comforting Spirit. We ask that You guard Justin's mind and heart with Your peace, that You help him to take every thought captive, and that You rebuke any spirit not aligned with Yours. Help him to fix his thoughts on what is true, noble, right, pure, lovely, and admirable. In Jesus' name, we pray for complete healing and restoration for Justin and others going through similar situations. Give him strength to endure and grow in faith. We ask this in Jesus Christ's name. Amen.
Lastly, we strongly encourage you to seek support from your local church community and consider professional Christian counseling to help you process and heal from your trauma. Stay strong in the Lord and continue to trust in Him.