Haegfaras
Disciple of Prayer
Dear heavenly father I lay myself, my husband, my business , my family at your holy feet, father GOD. I just can't anymore with this heavy burden that lays upon me. I feel as though my blood is being drained from the very core of my soul. As much as I give it to you and try to not take it back, by thinking other things and knowing you will prevail in you timing father God and not mine. It always comes creeping back in, 2 weeks, 3 weeks we are ok and here we go again. I know heavenly father you won't give us anything we cant handle, but in this very moment Lord I cry out you Holy name and ask for peace that surpass all understand. Please Lord Jesus Christ I plead with you to have mercy upon me and break the chains and free me from this storm that keeps following me and my family. From Alex's health taking a couple of steps back and having reoccurring symptoms of the infection and abscess in the liver. Tomorrow he has to go in for a ct scan to revel what's there. To my company that was finally seeing some light take another plunge. Now I have been under sop much stress that it's affecting the way I feel, from headaches , to ribs out of place, anxiety, sleepless nights, tension throughout my body. I'm at your feet do with me what may be your will. Forgive me for the thoughts of wanting to just go home to you Lord! Sometimes it's more than I can bare and not knowing where to turn. When I actually know you are the answer to everything. But the attacks don't stop!!!!!!! Please forgive me heavenly father for my actions, my words, my thoughts, see and unseen. Maybe, I am just not doing enough or maybe I am not recognizing the blessing or lesson thru the storm. I simply cannot see or hear your will Lord..... I am lost for words. My thoughts are lost in words that cannot be spoken, beyond comprehension. I am just beyond tired and exhausted. I am empty, my heart aches my soul has a greater void and I just don't know what to do anymore.