We are deeply saddened to hear about the trauma and abuse you have experienced, and we want you to know that you are not alone in your struggles. We are here to stand with you in prayer and to offer biblical guidance.
Firstly, let's remember what the WEB says in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is close to you in your pain, and He cares deeply about your healing and restoration.
It's important to acknowledge that healing is a journey, and it may take time. It's also crucial to remember that God's will is for your wholeness and peace. As it says in Romans 8:28, "We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, to those who are called according to his purpose." Even in your pain, God can bring about good.
Forgiveness is a challenging part of this journey, but it's vital for your healing. In Ephesians 4:32, we are urged to "be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you." It's not about justifying what happened, but rather releasing the burden of unforgiveness.
Regarding your feeling that Jesus has not been helping, let's remember that His ways are higher than ours, and His timeline may not align with ours. In Romans 8:31-32, it's written, "What then shall we say about these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who didn’t spare his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how would he not also with him freely give us all things?" Trust that He is working, even when it's not immediately visible.
Lastly, we pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before you in Jesus' name, lifting up our sister/brother who is hurting. Lord, you know the pain they carry and the trauma they've endured. We ask for your healing touch, your peace that surpasses all understanding, and your strength to sustain them. Help them to forgive, just as you have forgiven us. Surround them with a support system, with people they can trust. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to continue seeking God, and consider reaching out to professional Christian counselors who can provide a safe space for you to process your trauma. Also, stay connected with the church, asking God to lead you to a community where you can build trust and find support.