Pritesh
Disciple of Prayer
My Mom died on 12th January 2004, we had to bring her home in a coffin, from 2000 miles away.
My Brother died on 3rd of January 2018, we had to bring him home in a coffin, from 2000 miles away.
I was an Addict, been to two rehabs. Been beaten in Public and in a Police station. My father almost 75 years now, a chronic smoker. Today I have a 5-year-old daughter.
Sir, Ma'am, whoever if so, is in charge for our lives, all I want to say is that, I am trying.
I have faltered, I am broken, I am on my knees, I repent of my Sins and I ask for freedom of all Worldly things. I give up all my bad habits, I live for my Kid, my wife, and my ageing father.
I miss my Mother (###) and my brother (###), my world is so dark without them. I am trying, but I am tired, I am 43 and my soul is weak. I cannot give up because I have a 5-year-old looking up to me.
Even if I cannot be forgiven, so be it, I am willing to go to hell for all our Sins, which is unthinkable and unspeakable, but I at least want others, specially my Daughter to have a fair chance at life. My father, if possible, to be forgiven, my wife to find peace, and so my Brother and Mother.
I wish a pray that everyone find their peace, that the Devil may not be able to take their soul as it seems to have taken mine. Please pray for my family, please pray for my departed ones also, I have cried so much, I still do, my sadness is eternal it seems... I miss my Brother and Mother.
Please pray for everyone like me, and in worse situations, to be able to bear the struggle while we are still breathing.
Lord Jesus you died for us on the Cross, I don't wish that you die for us again, but today I cannot even say that I am forgiven, even though that is the only thing I seek.
Accept my repentance, please accept my apology, please accept my surrender, please accept my realisation.
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My Brother died on 3rd of January 2018, we had to bring him home in a coffin, from 2000 miles away.
I was an Addict, been to two rehabs. Been beaten in Public and in a Police station. My father almost 75 years now, a chronic smoker. Today I have a 5-year-old daughter.
Sir, Ma'am, whoever if so, is in charge for our lives, all I want to say is that, I am trying.
I have faltered, I am broken, I am on my knees, I repent of my Sins and I ask for freedom of all Worldly things. I give up all my bad habits, I live for my Kid, my wife, and my ageing father.
I miss my Mother (###) and my brother (###), my world is so dark without them. I am trying, but I am tired, I am 43 and my soul is weak. I cannot give up because I have a 5-year-old looking up to me.
Even if I cannot be forgiven, so be it, I am willing to go to hell for all our Sins, which is unthinkable and unspeakable, but I at least want others, specially my Daughter to have a fair chance at life. My father, if possible, to be forgiven, my wife to find peace, and so my Brother and Mother.
I wish a pray that everyone find their peace, that the Devil may not be able to take their soul as it seems to have taken mine. Please pray for my family, please pray for my departed ones also, I have cried so much, I still do, my sadness is eternal it seems... I miss my Brother and Mother.
Please pray for everyone like me, and in worse situations, to be able to bear the struggle while we are still breathing.
Lord Jesus you died for us on the Cross, I don't wish that you die for us again, but today I cannot even say that I am forgiven, even though that is the only thing I seek.
Accept my repentance, please accept my apology, please accept my surrender, please accept my realisation.
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