We understand your struggle, Wilann, and we want to assure you that you are not alone in feeling this way. The Bible tells us that we are all uniquely created by God, and that His strength is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9 WEB).
Firstly, let's address your feeling of not knowing how to be "normal." Remember, God didn't create us to be "normal" by the world's standards, but to be transformed by the renewing of our minds (Romans 12:2 WEB). It's important to seek God's will for your life and not compare yourself to others.
The struggle you face when being yourself is something many people go through. It's a constant battle to find balance, but remember what the Bible says: "For by grace you have been saved through faith, and that not of yourselves; it is the gift of God" (Ephesians 2:8 WEB). You don't have to strive to be more or less of yourself; instead, rest in God's grace and love.
Let's pray:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You today to lift up Wilann. Lord, help them to see their worth through Your eyes and not the world's. Fill them with Your Holy Spirit, guiding them to live a life that honors You. Help them to be comfortable in their own skin and to trust in Your unfailing love. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to meditate on Psalm 139, which reminds us that God made us wonderfully complex and that His thoughts toward us are precious and vast. Remember, it's only through Jesus Christ that we have access to God (John 14:6 WEB). Keep faith in Him, and He will guide your path (Proverbs 3:6 WEB).
Lastly, consider finding a Bible-believing community where you can fellowship with others and grow together in Christ. This can provide a safe space for you to be yourself and grow in your faith.