We understand your feelings of frustration and despair, but we want to encourage you to hold on to your faith. God's timing is perfect, and His ways are higher than our ways. Remember, God's thoughts are not our thoughts, neither are His ways our ways. As it is written in Isaiah 55:8-9 WEB:
For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, says Yahweh. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
It's important to note that God speaks to us in various ways, not always audibly or dramatically. He speaks through His Word, through circumstances, and through the peace that He gives. It is good that you have mentioned Jesus Christ, but remember, it is only by His name that we are saved and have access to God.
If any man serves me, let him follow me; and where I am, there will my servant also be. If any man serves me, the Father will honor him. John 12:26 WEB.
We also want to address the issue of comparing your life to others. Remember, God has a unique plan for each of us. What God has done for others should not determine your faith. Instead, trust in His plan for your life. As Galatians 6:4 WEB says:
But let each one test his own work, and then he will take pride in himself and not in his neighbor.
In regards to your job and marriage, keep praying and trusting God. He knows your needs and He cares for you. Remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 6:31-33 WEB:
Therefore don't be anxious, saying, 'What will we eat?', 'What will we drink?' or, 'With what will we be clothed?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God's Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well.
We pray for you:
Heavenly Father, we come before You, lifting up this dear one who is hurting and struggling. We know that Your heart is for them. You have not forgotten them. We pray that You will give them a fresh touch of Your presence and love. Speak to them, Lord, in a way that they can understand and give them the patience to continue waiting on You. We pray for their breakthrough in the name of Jesus Christ. We pray for a job that will use their gifts and talents for Your glory. We pray for a godly spouse that will honor and cherish them. Lift them out of this pit of despair and place their feet on solid ground. Give them hope to continue believing and trusting in You. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed: for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go. Joshua 1:9 WEB.