Thoughts of death run through my mind ...

[broken winged]

Thoughts of death run through my mind lately. Struggling not to throw in the towel due to life never going as planned no matter how much I work, fight, try, or cry out for help. I am exhausted of the same insults screamed, the same pain, the ringing of the same tune daily. The disappointment of loving with ALL my heart yet... alone. Kindness is replaced by bitterness and the reality of awakening to this lived nightmare once more feels unbearable at times. I am trying everyday to hold on till my daughter is of age or at least I can leave her well cared for because this life of mine has never been a life I can say I have lived. I have done all that I can to see the changes desired. I once thought that if you were not lazy, could picture the dream and plan steps to realize it with a realistic blue print there was nothing unreachable. To see how well ones plans work so easily for others and how much harder one must crawl tattered swollen and beat down to see not one thing change is disheartening. I have even premeditated my suicide note MANY occasions yet have lacked the courage to just let go. The stubborn fighter in me betrays me even on this. I have never been a selfish person and do not want to die as one either. I walk, talk, speak, and behave as everyone yet feel that I am murdered each day more and more inside. I pray for all of whom I love, defend and protect whom I love, and in doing so remember the love and the same protection my father gives me daily. Although I can NOT evade what I live daily nor change others I try to remember who I am through it all. This truth does become distorted at times because one get lost within the pain and anger replaces it because frustration because you can't change anything steps in. My patience is drained to the point silence works out best. The need of goodbye just doesn't wither away. It shadows me like an addiction. Has self inflection become the abuser now? I am tired of screaming inside and fighting all of the darkness on the outside. Tired of NOT being seen, appreciated, respected, nor valued. I am tired of pain and my eyes know I g only how to rain because my words seem to hold no power. In Jesus Christ name... Amen.

 

[Brother James]

Praying with and for you in Jesus.

We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

You can copy and paste this to pray every day and share...

There is nothing that happens for us that is bad. All things work for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!

Sing through out your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will over flow His Holy Peace in us.

Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.

I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.

Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!

Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.

Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.

Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.

Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.

Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.

Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[mycorize]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, will, timing, wisdom, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus. Amen!

Prayer Focus/Let's Pray: God I ask You in Jesus name bless me with the desires of my heart that is the will of God for my life and the will of God for those I pray for. Bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and cause my soul to prosper in the Word of God. Bless my relationship with You God to grow stronger, sweeter, and more intimate as the months and years go by. God strengthen me, and bless me with the spirit of obedience to obey Your Word and will for my life. God bless me to keep my focus on You at all times, trust You, dream the dreams of God, see those dreams come to reality, and fulfill the purpose You created me for. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me ever prosper. Give Your angels charge over me to protect, deliver, and keep me safe from all demonic activity, evil, hurt, harm, danger, the plans of my enemies, and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God cause my enemies to stumble, fail, be greatly ashamed, accept Jesus Christ as their Savior and Lord, and turn from their wicked ways. God all that I have asked of You in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of this prayer, those I pray for, and all those who pray for me. God forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. Thank You. Thank You. Thank You Jesus. Amen.

Now Stop, And Give God Some Praise! God thank You. Thank You for loving, forgiving, and saving me. Thank You for Your love, friendship, grace, mercy, goodness, timing, peace, protection, provision, and strength. Thank You for Your wisdom, guidance, direction, and leadership in my life. Thank You for all the blessing that You have given me and so much more. I thank You God for Who You Are and All That You Are. I don’t know where I would be it had not been for the Lord on my side. Thank You Jesus.

 

[tanu marvar]

Lord God, unite us with Jesus Christ, the risen and living One. Unite us so that our lives are completely submerged in your will through Jesus Christ. Tear us loose from all that tries to bind us to earth. Make us free people who always lift their heads and look up because their redemption is approaching. Almighty God, we trust in you, however difficult the times may be. Remember all peoples, for it is your will to gather them into your kingdom. You, O God, are our refuge and our help. In you we trust until the end. In jesus name i pray Amen.

 

[Tan Popatas]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

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