This is my final prayer request. Please don't worry about me. It's time I move on. I saw my wife Allie today and I gave her items that I thought might have meaning to her. She was instantly angry and defensive. I was actually very calm because I had just given a really great horse training lesson. I was polite and gentle with her but she was the same old angry hateful person. I said "hey I'm not here to fight I just wanted to return these things." She was so mean and not open for reconciliation at all. If you've read my many prayer requests you know I've held faith for her for 7 months. I really believed God. She was high on Marijuana of course. I tried everything to remind her that we used to be in love for 13 years. Really longer. She acted like I didn't exist. It's not easy to watch. She spoke with curse words and insulted me. I just smiled and said I would love her until the end of time. She hurt me deeply. I walked away just feeling more sorry for her than me. I really thought she might have healed. I'm going to be alright. I think. But I just don't understand why we were once so close and now nothing is meaningful to her. My life is empty for now. Maybe forever. It hurt to see her so hateful. But a maybe she was a covert narcissist the whole time. I think prayer works for others just maybe not me. I tried all I knew. How could I have loved someone like that? I remember that we had good memories and we loved each other. I thought. Now I guess God said give up it's not working. I wish I could move from here. I don't want to see her anymore. I really am ready to just dissappear from earth. I loved loving her. I don't want to hurt anyone but I can't keep missing her. I think she hates me. Hate is the equivalent to murder in many ways. It sure killed something in me. I enjoyed connecting with people on here. It's helpful for so many people. But I must figure out who I am. Allie was a good friend of mine that I could do anything with but it changed. I don't know if it was drugs or something else. I just know she was my best friend. God knows I'm hurting but like her maybe he doesn't care either. Maybe I just don't matter to anyone. It's weird to be alive but feel dead. It re traumatized me all over. I'm a man but I sure don't feel very strong. I'm just a nobody. A total nobody. Why can't it ever get better for me?
Praying with and for you in Jesus.
Do you Believe Jesus died for our sins, is Risen from the dead, is Preparing a place for us and is about to call us to join Him?
Are you watching for Jesus in the Clouds of Glory? Jesus is about to call us to join Him!
We can do everything Jesus did and more! We can speak; sickness leave in Jesus! Be healed by Jesus stripes! I am healed by Jesus stripes! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!
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There is nothing that happens for us that is bad. All things work for our good in Jesus! Look at everything as good!
Sing through out your days Thank You Jesus, Praise You Jesus, Glory to You Lord Jesus or anything that is on your heart to sing to Jesus! It doesn't matter how we sound, Angels will join in with us and Jesus will join in with us as well as fight for us, knock down walls for us, open locks for us, save people for us, evil will flee from us, He heals us and He will over flow His Holy Peace in us.
Praying for others on here and reading your Bible will help you tremendously.
I wanted to commit suicide once, I even came up with a plan. Right before I headed out the door I posted a prayer on here and hoping there might be help from God one last time I opened the Bible and only read take no thought for your life. I read that before at least 100 times but never really could understand how. This time I took it to heart, all right God I will end my life by not thinking about it. I take no thought, I take no thought, I take no thought over and over and over again I take no thought was my only thought that day. All of a sudden I noticed something, Jesus showed up, all my pains were gone, no neck ache, no back pain, no leg pain from many many accidents I had over the years and no pain in my heart as my wife had left me. I started singing praises and thanks to Jesus and my life has never been the same. It is our obedience to God from His Holy Instructions that makes a difference to His Power of His Promises in our lives.
Be a doer of Jesus friend, it really makes a difference! Thank You Lord Jesus!
Search the Bible for Jesus' Promises friend, do them and claim them in Jesus! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!
Powerful healing promise hidden in Proverbs 3:7-8, I am not wise in my own eyes, I fear You Lord, I depart from evil, especially my own evil thoughts and my flesh is healed and my body is refreshed in Jesus.
Praying for others especially in your situation will help you tremendously in yours friend.
Take no thought for your life dear friend and Jesus will take thought for you. Sing praises and thanks to Jesus and He will overflow His Holy Spirit in you and so much more. He will fight for you and give you the desires of your heart.
Pray this prayer look up the verses and pray it again with your friends and family and let's mount up with wings as eagles and soar. Soar with me.
Let Us Pray: God I ask in Jesus' name, bless me to grow closer to You. I long for a more intimate relationship with You. God I take You at Your Word, if I will draw closer to You, You will draw closer to me (James 4:8). Show me how to draw closer to You. Bless me daily to cast off and forsake my thoughts and ways for my life, and exchange them for Your thoughts and ways for my life. Let me think Your thoughts and dream Your dreams for my life. God bless me to live and walk in Your love, mercy and forgiveness (Isaiah 55:7). I confess, I will take no thought for my life. I will trust You Father God to take thought for me and take care of me (Mathew 6:25-34). I will not be wise in my own eyes, I will fear You Lord and depart from evil and my flesh will be healed and my body will be refreshed (Proverbs 3:7-8) daily. Thank You Jesus for Your Promises! Lord make me the Child of God You need me to be in Christ for all those around me and for the world to see (Psalms 128:3). Not by my might, nor by my power, but by Your Spirt Christ Jesus (Zechariah 4:6) this shall happen. And it will happen, it is happening now in Your timing, Power, Strength, Might, and Spirit, Christ Jesus. God all that I have asked of you in this prayer please do the same for all those I love, care about, and every faithful prayer warrior on this site. Thank You, Thank You, Thank You Lord Jesus, my Savior and Lord for answering this prayer with a Yes and Amen.
Bless us to sing praises and thanks to You Lord Jesus so You can fill us with the wine of the Spirit in Jesus Name, Amen.