Mordex
Humble Prayer Partner
This is a follow-up post of my previous two threads on this discussion board, per the request of the moderators. As stated in the previous thread, my troubles began when my mother had a heart attack in January 2017 and had to receive open heart surgery. I began to struggle in school because I could not fully focus, and my university's financial aid office took away my financial aid. I could not pay the tuition for the 2017-2018 Academic Year and cannot pay the tuition for the 2018-2019 Academic Year, thus preventing me from enrolling in my senior year. I have been rejected twice by a program that allow students to work for them and pays off part of their college tuition. Things took a turn for the worse, because on June 11th, 2018, my insurance companies dis-enrolled me from their programs, forcing me to cancel and reschedule an orthodontics appointment on June 19th. My parents know the drill, to obtain an enrollment verification form from my university and use it as proof that I am still attending college, which would renew my insurance. However, because of my overdue unpaid tuition, the university is preventing me from enrolling for the next school year. I cannot let my parents know because, my family is struggling financially and my parents would be very upset and disappointed in me. I have been praying about this since February, and although I receive dreams, signs, and wonders that everything will be alright, I have been receiving only mail letters and emails from my university nagging me to pay my tuition from the previous academic year, and grow anxious and afraid every time my parents ask me about the enrollment verification. I hate lying to them, but I know how much they'll freak out if I tell them the truth. The devil is constantly telling me that God won't come through for me and that I should take my life, but I don't want to because I am looking forward to so many great things later this year. No matter how many tears I have cried, I will still have faith that God has heard and answered my prayers and has a perfect time. I have been praying to God for more time for him to do his will in my life, and to keep my parents from continuing to ask me about the enrollment verification and for them to not take matters into their own hands and press me in anyway. God has delivered me from a tough senior year in high school before, I believe and have faith he can rescue me again this time. Update July 2018: Things seem to get worse and worse in my life. On Sunday I did not close the door of my brother's Prius all the way, and it drained the battery, preventing him from going to work. I praised God after my father and brother got the battery re-charged, only later to have my mother and father pressure me about the enrollment verification. I kept my cool and had faith things would turn out for the better, even if Satan is tempting me to end my life on July 5th, I want to persevere.