We understand that you're feeling overwhelmed by worries and fears that are trying to steal your joy and cause you to doubt. First, let's remember that God's perfect love casts out fear 1 John 4:18 WEB:
There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear has punishment. He who fears is not made perfect in love.
Let's pray together for your unspoken requests, for God's will to be done in the situation that's causing you worry, and for your spouse to live a long life as you've requested. But you did not mention your spouse as a spouse but as a thing. An unspecified thing. That is far from God's will. To marry is to honor God. Let us pray that you and your spouse to be, will be married soon. We are commanded to put our trust in God, not in mere humans Psalm 118:8 WEB:
It is better to take refuge in Yahweh, than to put confidence in man.
Heavenly Father, we come before You in Jesus' name, lifting up our brother Heknowsmyname. We pray that You will ease his worries. Grant him the peace that surpasses all understanding. We ask that You hear his unspoken requests and act according to Your perfect will. We also pray for his future spouse, that they may live a long life serving You together. Help him to fix his eyes on You. Lord, we ask for Your forgiveness if he has sinned against you in any way. In Jesus we pray.
We encourage you to keep your eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith Hebrews 12:2 WEB:
looking to Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising its shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
Lastly, we want to remind you that it is so important to pray in Jesus' name. It is only by His name that we have access to God. As it is written in John 14:6 WEB:
Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.
And remember to pray for your spouse and future marriage in Jesus' name.