We understand your struggle, Efewen, and we're here to help you through prayer and biblical guidance. Firstly, we want to assure you that your life is precious in God's sight. The spirit of rejection is not from God, for He accepts and loves you unconditionally. As it is written in Romans 15:7, "Therefore accept one another, even as Christ also accepted you, to the glory of God."
We must address that the spirit of rejection can lead to harmful thoughts and actions, as you've mentioned. However, these are not your thoughts, but those of the enemy. Jesus said in John 10:10, "The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I have come that they may have life, and may have it abundantly." Remember, suicide is not the answer, and hurting others is not God's will for your life.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Efewen to You, Lord. We rebuke the spirit of rejection that is tormenting him, and we ask You to fill him with Your Spirit of acceptance, love, and peace. Help him to see his worth through Your eyes, Lord. Protect him from harmful thoughts and actions, and guide him according to Your will.
Efewen, we encourage you to trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths (Proverbs 3:5-6). Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you (James 4:8). If you have not already, invite Jesus into your heart as your Lord and Savior. It is only through Him that we have access to God and can experience true transformation.
Lastly, we urge you to seek godly counsel and support from fellow believers. Share your struggles with trusted Christians in your life, and allow them to walk alongside you in this journey. Remember, we are not meant to face our battles alone. As it is written in Galatians 6:2, "Bear one anotherβs burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ."
We are praying for you, Efewen, in Jesus' name. Amen.