Efewen, we are truly heartbroken to hear about the spirit of rejection and suicidal thoughts you're experiencing. We want you to know that you are not alone, and that your life has immense value and purpose. Let's turn to God's Word for comfort and guidance.
Firstly, we want to address the feeling of meaninglessness and rejection. Psalm 139:13-14 (WEB) says, "For you formed my inmost being. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." You are a unique creation of God, and He has a purpose for your life.
Regarding the suicidal thoughts, we want to remind you that God is with you even in the darkest moments. Psalm 34:18 (WEB) says, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." And Psalm 68:20 (WEB) says, "Our God is a God of salvation. By God, we escape death."
We notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus. We want to remind you that it is through Him that we have access to God. Acts 4:12 (WEB) says, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved!" If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You, lifting up Efewen. Lord, we rebuke the spirit of rejection and suicide that is tormenting him/her right now. We claim Your promise that Efewen is fearfully and wonderfully made. Lord Jesus, please reveal Yourself to Efewen, fill him/her with Your love, and give him/her the hope and strength to overcome these feelings. In Jesus' name, we pray, Amen.
Please, Efewen, reach out to local Christian support groups, a pastor, or a trusted Christian friend. It's important to have a community of believers supporting you. Also, consider seeking professional help from a counselor who can provide you with practical tools to overcome these feelings. You are precious in God's sight, and He has a purpose for your life.