Anonymous
Beloved of All
I’m struggling with anxiety. And I’ll try to make it short . But I’m 29 and I’ve been single for 3 years. Months later I unexpectedly started talking to a guy who wanted to continue to talk after met but that didn’t go well it ended as he was re starting his life after the military because he is a single father , starting college, moving to new state, struggling financially, etc. now time past. And in the interim I always prayed for him to return to me if god thinks he can be for me and I know I shouldn’t lean in my own understanding but I kept praying for him until I started to realize I needed to start to pray to just bring me a man who is for me from god . And I recently started talking to this guy and he’s been nothing but green flags , very gentle, patient, respectful , etc we have been consistent with talking we still have yet to meet in person since we live different states, we have talked about boundaries , intentions and it has been clear that we want to continue to take eachother serious and see where it goes . He’s said he would be the one to come see me . Has said to me to never hold anything back if something is bothering me and yesterday I brought up a topic about boundaries that I seen he liked a female pictures cause that was part of my boundaries that I don’t like when the guy I talk to does that so he made it clear he will it do that but it was a whole convo from yesterday and I feel like I overwhelmed him . He hasn’t txted me today at all idk if I scared hi. Or taking a day to reflect and continue to txt me tomorrow but it has me anxious because I don’t want this to be another failed talking stage I just pray to the lord he guides me and let’s me know if this man can be for me and sent from him . I don’t want time wasted . I just pray the lord to talk to me and let me know if he is true to his intentions and could be for me I’m scared he was sent as a lesson be ause I’ll be hurt again if so . I know god does things so we grow but he’s been green flags he just hasn’t txted me today and idk what to think I just pray I get a txt from him tomorrow and just explain why he didn’t decide to txt me today. I pray the lord to guide me and help me with my anxiety and over thinking . I pray this man can be for me and sent from god as the one and i can be patient about it for things to go well as the lords word is to be with a gentle one who is patient . And if im the problem i pray he guides me to change those anxious habits so things work out with this man