Anonymous
Beloved of All
I’m struggling with anxiety. And I’ll try to make it short. But I’m ### and I’ve been single for ### years. Months later I unexpectedly started talking to a guy who wanted to continue to talk after we met but that didn’t go well; it ended as he was restarting his life after the military because he is a single father, starting college, moving to a new state, struggling financially, etc. Now time has passed. And in the interim, I always prayed for him to return to me if God thinks he can be for me, and I know I shouldn’t lean on my own understanding, but I kept praying for him until I started to realize I needed to start to pray to just bring me a man who is for me from God. And I recently started talking to this guy and he’s been nothing but green flags, very gentle, patient, respectful, etc. We have been consistent with talking; we still have yet to meet in person since we live in different states. We have talked about boundaries, intentions, and it has been clear that we want to continue to take each other seriously and see where it goes. He’s said he would be the one to come see me. He’s said to me to never hold anything back if something is bothering me, and yesterday I brought up a topic about boundaries because I saw he liked a female’s pictures, which was part of my boundaries that I don’t like when the guy I talk to does that. So he made it clear he will do that, but it was a whole conversation from yesterday, and I feel like I overwhelmed him. He hasn’t texted me today at all; I don’t know if I scared him. Or taking a day to reflect and continue to text me tomorrow, but it has me anxious because I don’t want this to be another failed talking stage. I just pray to the Lord he guides me and lets me know if this man can be for me and sent from Him. I don’t want time wasted. I just pray the Lord to talk to me and let me know if he is true to his intentions and could be for me. I’m scared he was sent as a lesson because I’ll be hurt again if so. I know God does things so we grow, but he’s been green flags; he just hasn’t texted me today, and I don’t know what to think. I just pray I get a text from him tomorrow and just explain why he didn’t decide to text me today. I pray the Lord to guide me and help me with my anxiety and overthinking. I pray this man can be for me and sent from God as the one, and I can be patient about it for things to go well as the Lord’s word is to be with a gentle one who is patient. And if I’m the problem, I pray He guides me to change those anxious habits so things work out with this man.