Anonymous
Beloved of All
Today I come to request another prayer in regards to something I have been struggling with . I’ve prayed to god for a while to not let me meet another man unless he could be the one. It’s been a month since I started talking to this guy who seems to be very gentle, seen, open to communication and made me feel safe to ask anything and have talked about our intentions and seems to sound like we align for the most part. We got very vulnerable so I then decided to bring up my boundaries to make sure that’s something he agrees if he wants to continue even after that. I explained that these boundaries didn’t align with my last relationship to why it didn’t work out and it’s about social media that I don’t like when the guy goes and likes women pictures and follows them. And things since we are barely getting to know eachother he doesn’t think he needs to do that right then and there but agrees if it gets much more serious that’s something he would respect but I did bring it up because I noticed he was doing so while we are getting to know eachother and maybe I shouldn’t bring it up yet untill it’s more serious but I already did and he got a little triggered because his past didn’t work due to them being controlling not that he took it that way but made him just think and kinda put a pause with the way things were going great. So we talked about it and opened up more is still interested and wants to meet me eventually but kinda changed the way we were talking to eachother but recently came to terms let’s move past this and wants to continue to talk consistently and get to know me and meet me in person but when there was a pause for like 4 days with no consistency I let my anxiety and over thinking take over it’s the worst cause I start to not feel ok mentally like feeling weak, anxious, think the worst and not be patient and lets things be and leave it to god. This man seems very genuine but I just don’t want to get hurt if he isn’t the one. He tells me he is very much interested in me and told me what caught his attention but idk if 100% true because only god knows that. I really like this man so if it’s in gods will for us to continue to get to know him I want that. And pray that what this man is telling me and saying is very much true. I think I believe him but because of the small situation we went through and the lil change in the way we first were talking makes me feel a lil sad . But I pray it goes back naturally to the way we first started . I pray that he can be the one. I want to be able to grow with him and with the lord in the middles because he seems like a genuine guy. I just pray for guidance. Patience and want the lord to speak to me to let me know he can be the one but that I need to be more patient and let things unfold and not let overthinking and anxiety take over cause that could potentially ruin it. I wanna know if I’m the problem. I want to know from the lord if he isn’t someone good for me or if he can be the right man. I’m just scared because I kind of started liking him a lot and I haven’t even met him in person yet as we do live in different states , he did mention he wanted to come and see me and do things the right way if it can turn out to be a good thing between us. I don’t want to scare him away with the little incident that happened with bringing up my boundaries where I kinda make him take one small step back to think even tho he reassured he still wants to continue to get to know me and would love to meet me. After we talked about what we want to do moving forward he did reassure me we will continue to be consistent on talking which yesterday was day 1 but today he hasn’t txted and here I am trying to be positive and not over think . I know good things take time but I’m just waiting for him to txt me. It’s going to be disappointing if he doesn’t stay consistent by not txting today cause he didn’t say we would and if we’re busy we’d update eachother and have small txt if we get those days. All in all I pray the lord can bless this if it could be in his will because he sounds like a genuine guy .