Rawnox
Disciple of Prayer
The Holy Spirit whispered, enlightened and guided me to email you today. To be very honest with you, I'm very much hurt today. But even so that I am, I kindly ask for your help too as I fight this emotional battle in prayer please pray for me too. I humbly and kindly ask you to help me pray for my foster mom who really had hurt me emotionally, spiritually and physically ever since I was young. Pray for her as she always called and still is considering and looking at me as her burden, as someone who came from the trash because my parents are "mangangalakal", as someone who is not worthy to be loved and proud of, someone who doesn't know how to pray, she wished for my life's downfall and failures, last Saturday, she called me her enemy after saying that she heard from Father's Homily to keep your enemies close, and then today, she called me a devil. I am hurt. I really am hurt. I understand and am still trying to understand, to love, to pray for and to take care of her knowing that she also had been hurt in her childhood, she is old and she is sick. Even if, I am not her daughter in flesh and blood, I still strive to be a daughter to her God called me to. But with what she has done and what she is doing, I completely really feel like I failed her just by being alive and here. I feel like I am a big mistake, none of what I say and do to her matters. Please help me by praying to God to forgive her in everything she has said and done to me, and that I may heal too and at the time when I can, I too can forgive her too. Pray for her complete healing emotionally and spiritually so that she may never hurt me and others so much in words, in actions and even with matters of faith and prayer... Pray for me that even if I have experienced this, in my dream future, I may never bring into my family this kind of pain that I am experiencing, and that I may love my children the best way I have wished to be loved by her and even my own parents.. Thank you and God bless.. Thank you Father for hearing my prayer..