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The enemy(whats new) is hitting me where I am most vulnerable--my workplace. I am now 1 warning away from getting fired. Although I have been gainfully employed and have enjoyed longevity in my careers---there is also a pattern of consequences, write-ups, and terminations. I have recieved awards at work, including Employee of the month, and yet there is still a consistent pattern, where it is evident, the destroyer & devourer are at work. These 'issues' always seem to spring up, at the times I am making the most progress in my Christian Walk---so I know they are interrelated---attempts to steal my joy, rob my finances and kill any fruit being born in my workplace--my witness. It is very difficult for me to tolerate monontony in my work. I expect my work to be engaging, and to hold my interest and attention. It's hard for me to not be busy. When I'm not busy, and it seems there is not adequate work to do--it's times like this that the boredom becomes excruciatingly painful for me to bear. After my endurance wears out--I tend to not exercise my better judgement, get impulsive, and this is precisely where I get into the trouble, that can cost me my job. I'd really like this to break off of me. The price is too high, to have this pattern keep repeating.