Bararlock
Disciple of Prayer
The darkness is so overwhelming. I am so exhausted with life and it’s constant battles. Feels like I haven’t had a break from it all in over 35 years and it’s just getting heavier and heavier. I have no one in my life that I can call upon, yet everyone expects so much from me all the time. I am so sad and feel like God is a million miles away, feels like our connection is totally broken. I can’t seem to retain any of the Bible anymore. I also need deep healing and deliverance from historical sexual, physical and mental abuse which I received from members of my family, school peers, and church leaders. I feel like I can’t breathe, the weight of it all is so consuming, sadness is too much, life is too much. I have no one, I am so alone and feel so hurt, betrayed and super lonely. I am not suicidal but I really don’t enjoy living at all anymore.