That I Resist Compulsive And Ritualistic Behavior/negative Thoughts

[seanathon]

i need humor like when i was a friend at Redlands, when i just listened and laughed at awesome stuff, i also would like that fun creativity liek when i was a kid at sycamore.   problem has been one of compulsive thoughts and a feeling a need for prayer at times wen hen it wouldnt really be needed  at least not in that way because anyway i ask for structui re but not anger for my mind, im going to do a quick summary of things that i would like liftjed away from me in jesus christ's name.  First, that i would not give into nor have compulsionsts for ritualistic, or compulsive/anxious prayer because i dont think such prayers are really pra enjyers, they are just compulsions that dont have any power, and are also not helpful, also that i oyed lawould leave all the burdens and fears and compulsions and anxieties and failureugins, and weird brokenness that i had in highschool in the past where it belongs somewhere whg at redlands ere it cannot even come back int ot he present nor have any hold on my future or memorieand s, lastly i would ask for help praying , there are still some slight delusions that tell mee tcatalina hat i cant get better because i have failed at prayer and that i cam actually someone who doesnt understand the word and that i dont bring good into the moment because of trust issues, there seems to be some part of me thtat k tries to mess with things when it sees something beautiful i dont know what this is but it has caused me alot of pain and i ask that i stop tring to mess up or control a beautiful situation that i can also be still and calm in the moment without thinking that fears or anxieties have any hold on me and i also ask that any negativity or burdens or or lies or misconceptions  that is keeping me fe from  having the loving childhood that i had in ireland would simply vanish without hold and that igave a helmet  that helps me to keeo out unwatnted thoughts negative thoughts and any other compulsion also that what ever anger and anxiety i had or have for the future would be rinsed off like flour with clean water and i would ask that all the delusional stuff the eye, stuff etc, would simply melt away without imprint and that i be joyful and sing today like  would at reptory opera in pomona when i first auditioned at repretory opera for the role of the speaker in the opera the magic flute, i ask for remembering and protection  and a strengthening of my memories of the joyful moments like catalina when i prayed with my friends in youth group and for love and joy like operas at repertory opera, that they be made invincibly bright i guess and i ask for the courage to not try and live in lies , and that my heart would begin beating with calm and joy and assurance of love in jesus christ's name that i trust jesus like i did when i was happy and loveing in ireland on my vacation and that all the memories and joys of ireland would fill my heart and remind me of jesus christs love with joy in my heart of hearts amen and i ask for guidance for this prayer that it be straightened by love  and the holy spirit i hope that you all have a wonderful day and may may love and gentleness strengthen my love and actions today like armor and its a beautiful day in i do ask for refinement of this prayer  and that any love or joy you would wish for me and any others in my family anywhere  would come true  in jesus christ's i pray amen its a beautiful day may i enjoy the stillness and may i remember people as they were at their most joyful and respect the people as they were at their most joyful like at catalina and when i was a kid.

 

[BLESSITONE]

...I WILL STAY ON BENDING KNESS & BENDED ELBOWS ON YOUR BEHALF

 

I am praying very hard for all of your intentions. You are absolutely right -- You are supposed to be persistent in prayer but not compulsive about it. I have been there -- I used to go on every prayer site on the internet with all my prayer requests. Would take hours. I still do that to get prayer for myself and for others because I believe the more people you have praying for you or another, the better. But I drastically limited how many of these sites I put the prayer post on and the time I spend doing it. I always post here. Then like I said, I will put the prayer on other sites, but I will not do more than an hour of this. Period. Is still alot, but is cut way down. I did this partly because my therapist was concerned and encouraged me to limit the prayer sessions. Is form of OCD. God understands you are doing it because you are sick, but He does want you to stop -- for your own sake, to free your mind.  I pray you will strike a balance. (Other thing is, I may post the same prayers on here, but never the same prayer on the same day. That is not compulsive.) Anyway, I pray for you in the name of Jesus of Nazareth. Amen and amen.

 

[sharonjoan]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[HopelessOne7]

I prayed for this. In Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

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