Brother James
Beloved of All
I know I’m not perfect but I believe in Jesus who was perfect for me. I went and bought 2 electric bikes so my wife and I could go biking together but I wasn’t thinking that she was going to make my life miserable while she goes out to find corruption even when I don’t see it, nor care about it and make weird faces in what seems to me as ignorance. Why don’t others see when we are in pain? My shoulders hurt, my hands hurt, my back hurts in which I try to share with her but now she doesn’t want me behind her. Anyway I yell at her and call her an idiot for her selfishness, I even use cuss words to emphasize it but I stop following her. Why wouldn’t she want me behind her, protecting her the best way I know how and believe me, I was special forces in the armed forces and I still know how to protect someone? I’m wondering why am I not dead especially with everything I’ve gone through, I’ve even experienced heart attacks. Believe me, I’m not puffed up in any way but I would like to get along with the wife you blessed me with. It’s supposed to start getting cold outside tomorrow. I’m still thinking about the life you blessed me with. Anyway, have mercy on us, forgive me for anything I have done that wasn’t of you especially for watching or looking at any pornography, maybe for wanting to kill somebody especially myself, give my wife and I favor in each other, love and true forgiveness for each other, desire to be with each other as well as give each other any space we need, help both of us to desire to be there for each other, give our children true love and forgiveness for anyone who has seemed to have wronged them especially for our son who constantly gives us reasons to forgive, especially for his pointing out to us that he is gay and that we have kept him from enjoying being gay, I plead the blood of Jesus over this family you have given as well as redeemed, forgiven, directed, provided for, done everything for and Oh so very much more in Jesus for your glory! Amen! Thank You Lord Jesus!!!