Tearsfromtheheart
Humble Servant of All
Thank you Lord for your blessings and for the things and time you provide to help and bless us with. You do this out of the kindness and mercy for us your children. I certainly don’t deserve your blessings and don’t always pass those blessings to others who deserve it. Forgive me Lord. Change me to be a better person. I don’t know how. I have a lot of trust issues and I’m am a lazy socializer. I’m not the greatest wife, daughter, or sister either. I have given into this feeling of not wanting to reach out to people. I think that this way I wont be disappointed. However i get disappointed anyway and end up disappointed others too. I pray for Josue and Meliza. They are good people and perhaps stuck in the same political dilemma—that they may not see someone who is really not asking for anything in return. Bless them Lord and help them with whatever is going on that they your need your in. Church life is so political. I hate it and i don’t play it but others do it well with a good heart. Be with them as they have been on my mind. My guilt is there for not being able to be the kind of friend to them that they need. Help me with my depression. With medication that i need for my cholesterol, it seems to counter whatever my antidepressant do. Maybe it is good thing Lord. It helps me to reach out to you more—-my only true friend, the one who knows all about me and does not reject me despite all my faults. Help me today with C and all the the others that i help. Give me the words of life for them and the solution that may help their situation. Give me patience with my mother in law and help her to her understand even in her dementia that i mean to do the best for her. Reach Carl to help him have some compassion for what i have deal with all by myself. I’m burning out. She is not the worst in her dementia but i do it 24/7…help my sister too and bless her. Cause she does her life all by herself. Help her and give her strength. I pray for Janell too. She needs to let go of the apron springs and mother needs to stop saving her daughter. She will never have her own life otherwise. But whom am i to judge. Help me with things i need to do everyday. The chores and problems i need to handle in Jesus name Amen!