Anonymous
Beloved of All
Thank you Lord for bringing me peace and comfort in a time where he (Eder) disappeared instead of talking about it. I am so angry at him doing that. I wish I had a man of God like my pastor described them to be including the part where they fight for you and chase you, instead of being a hustle to get a conversation or to spend some time with them like if you were nothing.I am tired of prioritizing someone who doesn't prioritize me. I pray a lot for him but he doesn't seem to want this. I dont know what he wants and I feel like I am a game to him. I appreciate people that care about me posted about this situation before on here and that I can post about it too. It makes me feel supported for people to have me in their prayers. I am just so angry, confused and hurt. I don't even know anymore if he is the one for me or not Lord. I don't even know if I should fight to stay in this town where I am having issues to find or job or leave. I don't have money to stay here anymore and nobody here truly helps me out...everyone just pushes me away or ignores me or just talks to me to ask about my life to gossip about it, not to help me. I feel like the whole world is falling down and I hate how they push me to leave or to talk to people who aren't good for me instead of being there for me. I feel so alone.. I feel destroyed and taken for granted. I feel misunderstood. I wish at least Eder would get me and understand me. I wish he cared about me more and that we truy were there for each other but he just focuses on himself at times and minimizes me. I wish he would treat me like a man of God does. I wish I had a job to pay for this apartment. I wish I was understood by him without him involving third parties, and just involving you. I don't want to cry anymore...I dont want to feel pain or angry... I just give this up to you. May this day pass by quickly and if I am meant to get a job, may I be able to get it so I can stay. Please open the doors and talk to me Lord. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.