Treble
Humble Prayer Partner
My prayer friends, I thank you that for the last number of months, you have been a steadiness and prayerful, immediate support when I have needed help. I'm sorry to say that after now 6 months of my estrangement from my friend Ronnie, that no signs of positivity seem forthcoming. It has left me with much sadness and pain which over this time have really not diminished. I'm struggling to move on from this, partly because I don't think it is the end of God's story. There has been no formal resignation from the choir which he has spent a lifetime in and the men continue to miss him hugely. My heart is heavy for the restoration of this dear friendship every single day, and particularly in the mornings when I awake. I went to church on my own one day, knelt at the communion rail and held my hands out to God, asking him to take this burden of longing from me and Ronnie out of my life and mind completely if it is not meant to be. I believe that I have fully surrendered this, but still he and the situation sit firmly on my heart, even after all this time. I don't know what to pray any more. I'm frustrated, feel that God is distant, I see no signs, direction, or confirmations and particularly on Christmas Eve, not hearing from him as I have for so many years, the grief is strong. I continue to believe, thank and trust God in His many promises - that His delays are not His denials, that He can turn around any situation, that He is God of the impossible and that He can make a way where there seems to be no way. Friends, my heart is heavy and sad and I continue to miss his friendship and partnership in our dear choir. Please pray that very soon, even this Christmas, that I may receive the joy of answered prayer. Amen.