Thank you for being here. I've lost me along a mental

[Marketa]

Thank you for being here. I've lost me along a mental road of my husband cuss me call me name tells me I'm the worst .he should have go with other women he had felt with in and out our relationship . I think I know my worth but I've lost me . I'm confuse and by feeling this was I don't act how I should my jut going true a faze. He don't understands when he cuss me call me bad name and go out with other and pay more attention to them it breaks me down more leaving feel like I'm nothing or important to him . I'm a nice person I do my best give my all yet even my dreams he says it nothing I need to change it .I've never hear such yet . I now have 2 kids from him and my older son he does things for himself if the food is gone in the house he don't buy any just fast food for him and brings it home if he does and ack if I need any . Yet my dad pention which is nor much pays the light water and cable bills buy food and also the baby pampers wipes etc. When he get money from his small business he always say it's the business money . If I ask for as little as 20 dollars he said I have to give it back yet he goes and buy shoes and cloths and party ever Friday night .buys wine and take for who I don't know .but I know he's dealing with someone . He lives with me by the dad house and because he feels he is so right he always say he leaving . The things we argue for is him and other women him not helping in the house work .if he eat he leave the box in the bed room he don't wash clean .cooks once in a while .but would say to me I should not complain because it's my dutis ad a wife . It's 50 /50 om tired to his business is installing car alarms and push starts in cars etc. I'm not working yet but he things I don't do nothing . I breastfeed my baby who will be 4 month old tomorrow . Most time he lay in bed and plays a car game on his phone and would look at me and say I'm hungry .I don't have a problem but how I'm treated I don't feel to show him kindness because all I'm hearing is I'm the worst .
He needs to be honest with himself with me and if he is planning on working it out to do better and help financialy around the house and woth the kids and stop making me look bad by saying he does everything and I'm this and that . And stop bringin hone his friends problems.
I'm past my limit I don't see him as a husband as a father because of how he treats the kids as someone I would sleep with anymore basically I don't feel to show him affection . Yet he told me a few days ago he don't feel like it's a marriage that I don't act my age he had younger girls who would do this and that . And he is going to look for someone who will act different .
I'm writing this note and right now I feel to give up . I've neve in my life been true such. It's hurts inside so bad .
I do so much yet nothing even when he finish work on a car I clean up his mess . I check the stock send out reminded via facebook so persons can see what he has to offer . He send me to bank his money I should take it and pay bills but that's not me I did what he told me .
I feel like nothing what purpose am I living for . My kids are my heart .
Please pray for me finding back myself .I don't know what my marriage holds . Please pray for me .thank you

 

[Shermarie1]

May our loving God hear and answer your prayer request. In Jesus precious name, Amen!!
Ephesians 3:20 (KJV) Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us

 

[hostadmin]

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[JesusIsMyOnlyHope]

"Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need." Hebrew 4:16

Father, I boldly come to your throne of mercy with this child’s need. I ask in your mighty power to meet this child’s need. I pray that this child of yours may experience your great love and care for them today. Give them eyes to see your hand of mercy at work in their life. Awaken all their senses to the realization that you will never leave them or forsake them.

In Jesus Christ’s Name I pray,  that you will receive and answer your child's prayers according to your perfect will and timing. Amen