Cithior
Disciple of Prayer
Thanks to God and to everyone here who has been praying for me. I’m trying to hang in there. I feel so useless and disgusted at work this morning. All I can think about is the fact that my schedule wont allow me to see my future wife as much nor go to church with her on Sundays. One point of praise though is that my church has Wednesday night services and I will still be able to attend those with her. But I just feel helpless, as I don’t have a real career and would like to get into one but that process is so daunting and so far off it feels like (I probably couldn’t even begin until next year to be certified). I have sent out dozens of resumes to various jobs but have only had two interviews (one was a no, the other is likely a no and I just haven’t heard from them yet, if I will at all). I feel alone, stuck in this place until I either get fired or demoted to a far worse position than I’m in now. My mind is swirling with fear as it always does because I can’t seem to stop overthinking things. I’m sorry to sound so hopeless. I am so thankful for the comfort I received from the messages here, and I know that Christ has me no matter what. I know that I’m so very blessed to have a wonderful future wife who loves me no matter what, a place to stay with my folks, food to eat, a good vehicle to drive and a job with decent pay, I know there are people who long for what I have, I’m grateful for these things. I’m just sad and scared and staring it all in the face. Please pray that God delivers me out of this into His perfect solution.