Thank you again for responding. I did not want to sound like

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Thank you again for responding. I did not want to sound like a broken record to you when you seem to keep receiving emails from me, indeed, I apologize deeply. But, there are times when I am being attacked with anxiety and I feel very nervous that I immediately go to my email and send someone my plea for prayer. I can't help it especially when I feel very fearful, even when someone knocks at my door, I hide and not open the door, I don't know why. I needed someone who can at least be with me in prayer especially when I am so wrapped with fear of what may possibly happen to me. The words you say below are very true especially when the other spirit try to confuse my mind with lots of lies to misalign my way of thinking and decision. I know Jesus is always in control but I feel better and good when I know good people like you are also with me and praying with me and you are writing back to me and I feel that you are not ignoring my plea for prayer. I am so happy each time I receive a reply from people like you because you seem to understand my feelings and the trauma I am going thru during these difficult times. I often times whisper to God to give us another chance on His blessings to us as a couple and as I continue to be of service to the Lord for the rest of my life and be a good living example to many people of the many pains and hurts when trials and tribulation hit us. I pray to God that may this coming celebration of the birth of Christ lead a happy ending and a heavenly gift to us and surely I will be very very thankful. Right now, I feel that christmas was not meant for me because there was nothing to be happy about to celebrate this year. I command all evil to stay away from us and not destroy our marital relationship because I put all my trust in the Lord.

Please pray for Carole, it is her 50th birthday on December 11th (Thursday). I do not know how I could reach her physically and all I can do perhaps is sing her a happy birthday song on her cell phone message recorder even when she is not answering my calls at all. Once again, I am begging everyone, please say a prayer for Carole tomorrow, Dec. 11th that God will enter her heart and touch her soul. Also pray for Rebecca to stop meddling with her mother's heart and who at 29 years old with NO physical disability, will not lift a finger and completely depend on Carole's financial support to live a life of abundance and relaxation with a live-in boyfriend at her mother's expense. Carole dumped me of 28 years marriage in exchange of her daughter, Rebecca. I can understand completely, Rebecca is only my stepdaughter and blood is thicker than water. But I can't understand why I am being dumped when we both were together in hard times and good times, in sickness and in heath in sorrow and happines for now 28 years.

Thank you for always being there for me in prayer because prayer is my only weapon, my only comfort during these times of hurts and pains thru many of you. May God bless you and your families always.

Respectfully, in Christ

Ed Ballentos