Dexter2020
Humble Servant of All
Thank Jesus to use my friend to remind me not to make the same mistake, yes, although searching for a spouse is critical, but I don't want to be in the loop of online dating and the hurt and go, so now I deactivated the dating platform although I am speaking to ### and did not inform her that I am deactivating it. Which takes a lot of self-control (fruit of the Holy Spirit). Although it may be painful, but it is all worth it. Now I would rather spend my time with Jesus and reading the Bible and be more involved in my home church. Because in the Bible it says, "Seek first my kingdom and righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you." I was stubborn in the past thinking that having a wife can fulfill me and spend a great ton of money and time to turn out to be like what the Bible stated in Ecclesiastes, "Vanity of vanities, become nothing." And it became an idol, and one will feel empty, cheated at the end of the day if that girl does not come out. I have tried to cast to use all methods to do things, Jesus prohibits, and it turned out, "Vanity of vanities, become nothing," so now instead of this, "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you," and what more that my Father in heaven not know the desperation of this situation to find a wife, but now using Godly ways, it is hard but lasting rather than building the house on hay which will vanish one day. And my future wife will be what is added unto me because I sought Jesus' kingdom. I was foolish in the past to search for worldly things, getting myself hurt and broken, so now I don't want to repeat the same mistake. As Jesus is the potter, we are the clay, and he said he will, he will, and it is from mutual understanding and love of Christ. Jesus doesn't want me to fall again but blessed me, so he led me to close the doors, and I have tried all methods, why not now submit, and Jesus will do his works because he knows our heart.