Dexter2020
Humble Servant of All
Thank Jesus to use my friend to remind me not to make the same mistake yes although searching for a spouse is critical but I dun want to be in the loop of online dating and the hurt and go, so now I deactivated the dating platform although I am speaking to Tee Hee and did not inform her that I am deactivating it. Which takes a lot of self control (fruit of the holy spirit). Although it may be painful, but it is all worth it. Now I would rather spend my time of Jesus and reading the bible and be more involved in my home church. Cause in the bible it say Seek first my kingdom and righteousness and all these will be added to you. I was stubborn in the past thinking that having a wife can fulfill me and spend a great ton of money and time to turn out to be like what the bible stated in Ecclesiastes "Vanity of vanities, become nothing". And it become an idol and one will feel empty , cheated at the end of the day if that girl does not come out. I have tried to cast to use all methods to do things, Jesus prohibit and it turned out "Vanity of vanities, become nothing" so now instead of this ""But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you" and what more that my father in heaven not know the desperation of this situation to find a wife but now using Godly ways it is hard but lasting rather than building the house on hay which will vanish one day. And my future wife will be what is added unto me because I sought Jesus kingdom. I was foolish in the past to search for worldly things getting myself hurt and broken so now I don't want to repeat the same mistake. As Jesus is the potter we are the clay and he said he will means he will and it is from mutual understanding and love of Christ. Jesus don't want me to fall again but blessed me so he led me to close the doors and I have tried all methods why not now submit and Jesus will do his works cause he knows our heart.