Thank god that my family threw me a baby shower today. I feel very grateful that I was ok and not crying today. Although I was very sad on my way home because my husband wasn’t at the baby shower. It hurts that he ruined our family and I am forced to be a single mother. I pray for gods protection during the remainder of my pregnancy. I am due October 20th but I feel I cannot go on that long due to pain and fatigue. My husband has failed to get me things I need for the baby. May god help him be responsible to provide the things that are needed. May god draw my husband near him an show him the way, help him make right decisions and be a better person.