Justin, we understand that you are struggling with difficult thoughts and emotions. First, we want to address the fact that it is good that you are coming to the LORD in prayer, and it is important that you are doing so in Jesus' name, as it is only by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. There is no other name by which we can be saved. As it is written in Acts 4:12 WEB: "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!"
The thoughts you are experiencing are not from God, for God calls us to honor our parents, as commanded in Exodus 20:12 WEB:
"Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land which Yahweh your God gives you."
It is important to take control with God's help and direction over your thoughts and not be held captive by negative or sinful thoughts. Rebuke these thoughts in Jesus' name when they come. The mind is a battlefield for Satan and he will attack in this area.
2 Corinthians 10:5 WEB:
"casting down imaginations and every high thing that is exalted against the knowledge of God, and bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ"
God tells us to love our enemies, so we must do the same for family.
Matthew 5:44:
"But I tell you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who mistreat you and persecute you,"
We pray that God will help you to forgive and overcome these negative thoughts.
Ephesians 4:32 WEB:
"Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, just as God also in Christ forgave you."
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Justin. Lord, he is battling with negative thoughts and needs Your divine intervention. Help him to forgive and to honor his mother, as Your word commands. Give him the strength and wisdom to cast down any imagination that exalts itself against the knowledge of God. Fill his heart with Your love and peace. In Jesus' name, we rebuke any spirit that is not of You, and we ask that You bless Justin and guide him through this struggle. Help him to be strong in you and in the power of His might.
In Jesus' name, we pray, Amen.
Justin, continue to pray and seek God's face. Surround yourself with believers who can support and encourage you. Remember that God loves you and has a wonderful plan for your life. Trust in Him, and He will see you through. If you are not already, make sure to be involved with other believers in a local church. It is important for all believers to gather together regularly and encourge each other in the faith. If you have not already put your complete faith in Jesus Christ, died to yourself, your desires, your wants, your lusts, your dreams, your hopes, your hobbies, your mistakes, your sins, your pride, your selfishness, your ambitions, your whole life. It needs to be Jesus' desires and Jesus' will. You need to be sold out to Jesus Christ, and you need to be born again.