Annileves
Prayer Warrior
Taking my own life is starting to seem appealing again. God, I have nothing that really brings me joy. Sure, I have food on the table and roof over my head. But I don't even have a relationship with You. I'm stuck between a past I wish I could escape and a future I fear. I haven't been able to reach You. God, I don't know how much longer I can take this. Will I ever be able to trust You again, or have I lost You forever? I'm sorry for being so stupid. I'm sorry for not giving You my all. I don't think I can. Is it too late? It feels like I'm being pushed towards a cliff and if You don't do something I will fall over the edge. I don't even remember what it's like to be in Your presence. I don't even remember what it's like to actually believe. I had my chance. Will I ever get another one? If I do, will I even dare to take that chance? Please help me Lord, in Jesus name, amen.