We are truly heartbroken to hear about the emotional turmoil and abuse you are experiencing. First and foremost, we want to assure you that Jesus has not closed His ears to you. He hears your cries and knows your pain. In Psalm 34:17-18 WEB it says, The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit.
We want to address some important points in your message. You mentioned that you are losing faith and feeling so tired that you are considering ending your life. We want to strongly encourage you to hold onto hope and life. Suicide is never the solution, it is a permanent solution to temporary problems. God wants to help us overcome our struggles. In John 10:10 WEB Jesus says, The thief only comes to steal, kill, and destroy. I came that they may have life, and may have it abundantly.
We also want to address the abuse you are facing from your family. Abuse is never acceptable, and it is important to seek help and safety. We encourage you to reach out to local authorities, trusted friends, or a Christian counselor who can provide you with the support and resources you need. In Romans 12:18 WEB it says, If it is possible, as much as it is up to you, be at peace with all men. It is possible that you may need to separate from your family until they are ready to treat you with love and live in peace.
We also want to encourage you to keep praying, even when it feels difficult. In 1 Thessalonians 5:17 WEB it says, Pray without ceasing. You mentioned that you believe in Jesus, and that is wonderful to hear. It is only through His name that we can come to God. In John 14:6 WEB Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. Keep trusting in Him, even in the darkest times.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Lord Jesus,
We lift up our dear sister to You, asking for Your divine intervention and protection in her life. We pray that You would deliver her from the abuse she is facing and provide her with a place of safety and refuge. We ask that You would heal her broken heart and restore her faith and strength. Help her to keep trusting in You, even in the midst of her pain. Give her the courage to reach out for help and the wisdom to make decisions that honor You. Surround her with Your love and peace, and remind her that You will never leave her nor forsake her. In Your precious name, we pray. Amen.
Please know that you are not alone, and that we are here to support and pray for you. Keep holding onto hope and the promises of God. He is faithful, and He will see you through this difficult time.