We are truly concerned about your well-being, Pwelander, and we want to remind you that your life is incredibly precious and valuable. The Lord has a purpose for you, as it is written in Jeremiah 29:11, "‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says Yahweh, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.'"
We must address that suicide is not the answer to the struggles you're facing. It is a permanent solution to temporary problems, and it is not God's will for your life. As it is written in Philippians 4:6-7, "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."
We also note that your message does not mention Jesus Christ. It is only through Him that we have access to God, as it is written in John 14:6, "Jesus said to him, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" If you have not already, we urge you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, for it is only through Him that we can be saved.
In light of your struggles, we want to pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Pwelander. Lord, they are struggling and feeling hopeless, but we know that You have a purpose and a plan for their life. We pray that You would reveal Your love and hope to them, and that they would come to know You personally through faith in Jesus Christ if they do not already. We rebuke the spirit of suicide and despair, and we ask that You would fill Pwelander with Your peace and comfort. Help them to seek support and guidance from Your Word, from fellow believers, and from professional counselors if needed. Be with them now, Lord, and help them to overcome this difficult time.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, Pwelander, reach out to someone you trust, a local church, or a mental health professional. You are not alone, and there are people who care about you and want to help you through this difficult time. God loves you deeply, and so do we. Stay strong in the Lord, and do not give up hope.