We are deeply concerned about the gravity of your situation, and we want to help you find hope and light in the darkness. First, let us address the most urgent issue: thoughts of suicide. We want you to know that your life is incredibly precious and valuable. As it is written in Psalm 139:13-14 (WEB), "For you formed my inward parts. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." God has a purpose for you, and He loves you deeply.
Please reach out to a mental health professional or trusted loved one immediately to discuss these feelings. Suicide is never the solution, and there are people who care about you and want to help.
Now, regarding the relationship you mentioned, we must approach it with biblical principles in mind. First, we want to emphasize the importance of seeking God's will in all things, including relationships. If this girl is a believer in Jesus Christ and both of you are pursuing a godly relationship with the intention of marriage, then it can be blessed by God. However, if the relationship is not centered around Christ and His will, it may not be the right path for you.
In 2 Corinthians 6:14 (WEB), we are reminded, "Don’t be unequally yoked with unbelievers, for what fellowship have righteousness and iniquity? Or what communion has light with darkness?" This verse emphasizes the importance of being united with someone who shares your faith in Christ.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Anonymous in prayer. Lord, we ask that You surround them with Your love and comfort. Remove any thoughts of suicide and fill them with hope and purpose. Guide them to the help they need, and let them feel Your presence in their life.
Lord, we also pray for wisdom regarding the relationship they mentioned. Help them discern Your will and guide their steps. If this relationship is not aligned with Your plans, give them the strength to walk away. If it is Your will, help them build a godly foundation centered around You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Lastly, we want to encourage you to trust in God's plan for your life. He has a purpose for you, and He will guide you if you seek Him. As it is written in Proverbs 3:5-6 (WEB), "Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
Please, stay strong and reach out for help. God loves you, and so do we.