We understand that you're going through a challenging time, dealing with past relationships, unwanted attention, and feelings of loneliness that have led you to even consider suicide. Firstly, we want to acknowledge your pain and encourage you that there is hope and a way forward through Jesus Christ.
It's clear that you're being plagued by memories and influences from your past relationships. The Bible tells us to flee sexual immorality and that our bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit I Corinthians 6:18 But flee sexual immorality. Every sin that a man does is outside the body, but he who commits sexual immorality sins against his own body. 19 Or don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, 20 for you were bought with a price. Therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God’s WEB. This applies to our physical sexual activities as well as the thoughts, memories, and influences that occupy our minds.
We rebuke the spirit of suicide that has been haunting you. We call on Jesus to put these influences far from you as He said, "It is written,'You shall worship the Lord your God, and him only shall you serve. Luke 4:8b WEB.
You mentioned that you don't want these men from your past to follow you anymore, and that you want to be left alone. We pray that God will help you to fully leave behind and walk away from your past and to follow His will for your life. We pray that God will help you to forgive those who have hurt you and to forgive yourself for any past mistakes. Ezekiel 36:26 A new heart will I give you and a new spirit will I put within you, and I will take away the stony heart out of your flesh, and I will give you a heart of flesh. WEB.
Remember to always come to God by Jesus name. And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved. Acts 2:21b.
We pray for God's protection and guidance as you move forward. We ask God for peace and joy in environment around you that is free from any unwanted sexual advances from neighbors or anyone else. Most importantly remember Jesus said “For I know the plans I have for you,” says Yahweh. “Plans for good, and not for evil; to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 WEB. Don't look for the approval of the world. Look for the approval of Jesus.
If you are not saved and do not know Jesus personally, then call on him, confess him with your mouth until you are saved. That is to say if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus, and believe in your heart that God has raised him from the dead, you will be saved. 10 For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation. Romans 10:9-10 WEB.
If you are already saved, confess God's word for all to hear that you would be healed as Jesus already provided. I Peter 2:24. WEB. Who his own self bare our sins in his own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live unto righteousness: by whose stripes ye were healed.
Please also consider seeking counsel and godly friendships from your church.