We are truly saddened to hear about the distress and pain you are experiencing. First and foremost, we want to assure you that you are not alone, and there is always hope in Jesus Christ.
In 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 (WEB), it is written: "Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our affliction, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, through the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."
It's important to address that placing your ultimate hope in a relationship with another person, outside of God's will, can lead to further pain. We understand that you feel strongly about this girl, but we must remember that our dependence should be on God alone. Psalm 62:5-6 (WEB) tells us: "My soul, wait in silence for God alone, for my expectation is from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress. I will not be shaken."
Suicidal thoughts are a serious matter, and we urge you to seek immediate help from professionals who can provide the support you need. Additionally, we implore you to turn to Jesus Christ, who is the only one who can provide true healing and comfort. In Matthew 11:28 (WEB), Jesus says: "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest."
We also notice that your request does not mention the name of Jesus Christ. It is only through His name that we have access to God and salvation. Acts 4:12 (WEB) states: "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men by which we must be saved!"
Let us pray together:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today, lifting up this individual who is in deep distress. Lord, we ask for Your comfort and strength to surround them. Help them to find hope and healing in You, and guide them to the professional help they need. We pray that they will come to know the saving grace of Jesus Christ and place their trust in Him alone. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please, reach out to a healthcare provider or a trusted Christian friend immediately. There are also helplines available to support you. God loves you deeply and has a purpose for your life. Trust in Him, and He will see you through this difficult time.