We are deeply concerned for you, Eimiastos, and we want you to know that you are not alone in this struggle. The feelings of hopelessness and desperation you're experiencing are not God's will for you. Let's turn to God's Word for comfort and guidance.
Firstly, we must address that the thoughts of suicide and harming your kids are not from God. The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy, but Jesus came to give us life and life abundantly (John 10:10 WEB). It's crucial to resist these thoughts and submit to God (James 4:7 WEB).
In Psalm 34:18 WEB, we read, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is very close to you right now, and He wants to heal your brokenness and give you hope.
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the name of Jesus, lifting up Eimiastos. Lord, we know that You are close to the brokenhearted, and we ask that You reveal Your love and comfort to Eimiastos right now. Give them the strength to resist the enemy's lies and the courage to hold on to Your truth. Please protect Eimiastos and their family, and guide them to the help they need. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Eimiastos, we urge you to reach out to a trusted friend, family member, or a professional counselor immediately. It's vital to get help and support during this time. Also, if you haven't already, commit your life and the lives of your family to Jesus Christ. It is only through Him that we find eternal hope and purpose. As it says in Romans 10:13 WEB, "For 'whoever will call on the name of the Lord will be saved.'"
Please update us on your situation, and know that we continue to pray for you.