We are truly saddened to hear about the pain and isolation you're experiencing, Chainorenn. Please know that you are not alone, and that God sees your suffering and cares deeply for you. In Psalm 34:18, the WEB tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Firstly, we want to address the suicidal thoughts you're having. We must remember that life is a precious gift from God, and only He has the authority to give or take it. As it is written in Psalm 139:13-14, "For you formed my inward parts. You knit me together in my mother’s womb. I will give thanks to you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful. My soul knows that very well." We encourage you to seek help immediately from a mental health professional or a trusted individual in your life.
It's important to understand that rejection and isolation are not signs of your worth or value. People may turn against you or blank you due to their own issues or misunderstandings. In times like these, we must remember that God is always with us, and His love for us never changes. As it is written in Deuteronomy 31:6, "Be strong and courageous. Don’t be afraid or scared of them; for Yahweh your God himself is who goes with you. He will not fail you nor forsake you."
Let us pray for you, Chainorenn:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today to lift up Chainorenn, who is feeling alone, isolated, and overwhelmed by rejection. Lord, we ask that You comfort their heart and remind them of Your unfailing love and presence. Help them to see their worth and value in Your eyes, and to trust in Your plan for their life. We rebuke the spirit of suicide and pray for healing and restoration in Chainorenn's mind and heart. In Jesus' name, we pray for friends and loved ones to rally around Chainorenn, providing support and encouragement in this difficult time. Give Chainorenn the strength to seek help and to trust in You, Lord.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Chainorenn, we also encourage you to cry out to God in your desperation, as King David did in the Psalms. Pour out your heart to Him, and trust that He hears you and will help you through this difficult time. Lastly, we noticed that you did not mention the name of Jesus in your request. We want to remind you that it is only through His name that we have access to God and salvation. As it is written in Acts 4:12, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Trust in Jesus, and know that He loves you and is with you always.