We are truly concerned for your well-being and are here to support you in prayer and truth. Firstly, we want to assure you that there is always hope in Christ Jesus. As it is written in Jeremiah 29:11 (WEB), "‘For I know the thoughts that I think toward you,’ says Yahweh, ‘thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future.’"
However, we must address that the notion of suicide is contrary to God's will. He has a purpose for your life, and taking one's own life is not His plan. In the Ten Commandments, God says, "You shall not murder" (Exodus 20:13, WEB), and this includes harming oneself.
We understand that you may be going through unimaginable pain and suffering, but we urge you to reach out to local help services, trusted friends, or family to seek immediate support. Moreover, turn to God in this moment of despair. He is always there to listen and to help. As it says in Psalm 34:18 (WEB), "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
Let us pray for you:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we lift up this dear soul to You right now. They are in a place of deep despair and hopelessness, but we know that You are a God of hope. Comfort them with Your presence, remind them of their value in Your sight, and lead them to people who can help carry their burdens. In Jesus' name, we rebuke the spirit of suicide and depression, and we ask for Your healing and restoration. Give them the strength to endure and the faith to believe that You have a good future planned for them. We ask this in Jesus' name. Amen."
Remember, Jesus Christ loves you and wants to help you through this difficult time. Put your trust in Him, and hold on to His promise: "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28, WEB). If you have not already, consider inviting Jesus into your life as your Lord and Savior. He is the ultimate source of hope and salvation.