Anonymous
Beloved of All
Stupid deluded freaks. They actually think they mean anything to me. I want them to know that I don't feel the slightest bit close to them. That I don't care the slightest bit about them. That I don't feel the slightest bit attracted to them. That I don't have the slightest affection left for them (and what was in the past was never real, based on lies). That I don't have the slightest good feeling left. That I don't have the slightest good view of the younger one of them. That I don't have the slightest interest in them as anything, other than as a Christian for people in general (but for them, it's even lesser than this). That they don't mean the slightest thing to me. And that there's less than a slight chance I can accept them in my life. And there isn't even the slightest chance that I'll ever like them. It amazes what these shameless fools think: that they can still claim any part of my heart or life after the things they've done to wreck it, and never even acknowledging it. They always want my apologies when they never apologise for their wrongs. There's no person I've met who sickens me more. Also, they reckon that they can actually compete with my brothers; that "they" can be more special to me. They're not special full stop. My brothers mean everything to me, apart from God. Whereas, the liars mean nothing. You have to be the stupidest person on earth to keep praying for God to "return" me to them, when the most they can hope for is forgiveness based on repentance and confession to ME (not just to God!), and even that only as a fellow believer, not a friend. The chance to be forgiven as a friend, they've already blown. They're even more foolish to hope for my heart, when it's already eternally taken. Even if it wasn't, I could never like disgusting freaks like them. Esp. the younger freak. No matter how I dislike him for all his deception and everything else also, at least his big brother has more decency. Yet I'd never like him either. They like to imagine some sort of "bond" with me which doesn't exist at all.