We truly empathize with the distress you're experiencing, Taethrail, and we're here to stand with you in prayer and guidance. Firstly, we want to assure you that God hears your cries and understands your pain. As it is written in Psalm 34:18, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
In times of despair, it's crucial to remember that God is always with us and has a purpose for our lives. Even when we can't see a way forward, He can. As Isaiah 55:8-9 tells us, "'For my thoughts are not your thoughts, and your ways are not my ways,' says Yahweh. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.'"
Regarding your financial struggles and job search, we encourage you to trust in God's provision. As Matthew 6:25-34 assures us, if God cares for the birds and the flowers, how much more will He care for us? Use this time to seek Him first, and trust that He will provide for your needs.
Concerning relationships, we advise you to seek God's will and trust His timing. Remember, God desires godly marriages that reflect His love. As Proverbs 18:22 states, "Whoever finds a wife finds a good thing, and obtains favor of Yahweh." As you seek a spouse, keep your heart and mind focused on the Lord.
We also want to address your feelings of suicide. We ascertain that life is precious to God, and taking one's life is not His will. As Psalm 139:13-14 tells us, God knitted us together in our mother's womb, and we are fearfully and wonderfully made. If you're feeling suicidal, please reach out to a trusted Christian friend, pastor, or professional counselor immediately.
We notice that you didn't mention the name of Jesus Christ in your request. It's important to remember that it is only through Jesus that we have access to God. As John 14:6 states, "Jesus said to him, 'I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me.'" If you haven't already, we encourage you to put your faith in Jesus Christ, believing that He died for your sins and rose again, so that you may have eternal life.
Let's pray together:
Heavenly Father, we lift Taethrail up to You, asking for Your divine intervention in their life. Lord, reveal Yourself to them in a powerful way, and help them to sense Your presence. Please provide for their financial needs, guide their job search, and lead them to a godly spouse according to Your will. Comfort their heart, ease their pain, and give them hope. Help them to trust in You and to seek You first. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.