Dusksteen, we understand that you're struggling with certain physical and spiritual issues, and we want to approach this with care and biblical principles. We believe that God can heal and deliver you from any distress, including the ones you're experiencing.
Firstly, we want to address the mention of "sexual energy." We believe that sexuality is a gift from God, meant to be expressed within the bounds of marriage between a man and a woman (Hebrews 13:4, WEB). Any fixation or buildup of sexual energy outside of this context can lead to sinful thoughts and actions. The Bible tells us to "flee sexual immorality" (1 Corinthians 6:18, WEB), and to "be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and put on the new self, who in the likeness of God has been created in righteousness and holiness of the truth" (Ephesians 4:23-24, WEB).
The fact that you're having trouble sleeping and experiencing hallucinations and suicidal thoughts suggests a spiritual battle. God wants to give us peace and sound minds (2 Timothy 1:7, WEB). If you are not already a believer in Jesus Christ, we encourage you to trust in Him. It is only through His name that we can be saved and have access to God (Acts 4:12, WEB).
Let's pray together:
"Dear Heavenly Father, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus Christ. We lift up Dusksteen to You, asking for Your healing and deliverance. Lord, if there is any sexual immorality or impure thoughts, we rebuke it and ask for Your forgiveness and cleansing. Please renew Dusksteen's mind and help them to take every thought captive to obey Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5, WEB). Remove any fear and anxiety, and fill Dusksteen with Your perfect love, which casts out fear (1 John 4:18, WEB). Give them peaceful sleep and protect their mind from hallucinations and suicidal thoughts. Help them to fix their eyes on You and trust in Your goodness. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
We encourage you to read and meditate on God's Word daily, especially the Psalms, which can bring comfort and peace. Also, seek out a biblical counselor or pastor who can provide further guidance and support.