We understand your struggle, dear Anonymous, and we want you to know that you are not alone. The pain and trauma you've experienced are real, and it's understandable that you feel abandoned and struggle with prayer. Let's remember the words of Jesus in John 16:33 (WEB), "I have told you these things, that in me you may have peace. In the world you have trouble; but cheer up! I have overcome the world."
Even in your pain, know that the Lord is near. Psalm 34:18 (WEB) tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." It's important not to lose heart or faith in such times. Even Jesus, in his greatest pain, cried out to God (Matthew 27:46).
When you find it difficult to pray, remember that the Holy Spirit intercedes for us. Romans 8:26 (WEB) says, "In the same way, the Spirit also helps our weaknesses, for we don’t know how to pray as we ought. But the Spirit himself makes intercession for us with groanings which can’t be uttered."
Let's pray together:
"Dear Lord Jesus, we lift up Anonymous to you. You know their pain, their struggles, and their fears. We ask for your healing touch, Lord. Comfort their heart, ease their mind, and help them to focus on you. Protect them from those who seek to harm, and help them to forgive those who have caused them pain, just as you forgave those who persecuted you. Remind them of your love and presence, even in their darkest moments. In Jesus' precious name, we pray. Amen."
Remember, forgiveness is not saying what happened is acceptable, but rather, releasing the burden to God. It's a process, and it's okay if you're not there yet. Keep trusting God, one day at a time.
Lastly, it's great that you ended your request with "Amen," which means "so be it." However, remember that it's by the name of Jesus that we have access to God. As Acts 4:12 (WEB) states, "There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved!" Keep crying out to Jesus, trusting in his name and his power to save and heal.