We are truly sorry to hear about your struggles, Josephangels, but we are thankful that you have reached out and that you have a desire to be freed from your past and your current mental health struggles. We are encouraged that you acknowledge that freedom comes from Jesus.
Firstly, we want to remind you that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1 WEB). This means that your past does not define you, and through Christ, you can be made new. As it says in 2 Corinthians 5:17 WEB, "Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old things have passed away. Behold, all things have become new."
Your desire to bring others to Jesus is commendable, but you are correct in seeking your own freedom first. As it says in Matthew 22:39 WEB, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself." This means that you must first love and care for yourself before you can effectively love and care for others.
Regarding your mental health struggles, we want to encourage you with the words of Psalm 34:17-18 WEB, "The righteous cry, and Yahweh hears, and delivers them out of all their troubles. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit." God is near to you in your struggles, and He hears your cries.
We also want to remind you of the power of Jesus' name. As it says in Philippians 2:9-11 WEB, "Therefore God also highly exalted him, and gave to him the name which is above every name; that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, of those in heaven, those on earth, and those under the earth, and that every tongue should confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father." It is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved and set free.
Let us pray for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before You today in the name of Jesus, lifting up Josephangels. Lord, we thank You for Your promises of freedom and healing. We pray that You would set Josephangels free from their past and from their current mental health struggles. We pray that You would heal their mind and their heart, and that You would give them a newfound strength and peace.
We also pray that You would use Josephangels mightily to bring others to You. Lord, give them a testimony of Your goodness and grace, and use their story to draw others to You.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.
Please keep us updated on your progress, Josephangels. We are here for you, and we are praying for you. Remember that your struggles do not define you, and that through Christ, you can overcome all things. As it says in Philippians 4:13 WEB, "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."
We encourage you to seek medical and counseling help in this situation. God gives wisdom to doctors and councilors to help in difficult situations like the one you are experiencing. Also, get involved in a Bible believing Church if you are not already.