Struggling chasing repentance instead of Jesus

Lealand Wray · Aug 30, 2024

I have had the word repent yelled at me in a condemning way or at least I have taken it. I have gotten so focused on repentance and trying to repent myself like Judas I feel like instead of receiving it from God as a gift and doing it from the heart. I have let it make me believe that I am not truly saved. I just need a true heart revelation of Jesus. I feel like my heart has become numb and checked out. I need Jesus and his love. I don't want to keep playing a victim and ol poor me. Then go give into pornography and masturbating. I want the judgemental thoughts towards myself and others to go. I know God hears faith anf mine has been weak or little to none because of excessive self introspection. Someone told me just look to Jesus and I need his Grace to help me to do that. I am asking for your prayers and that God will help me get to the roots of my issues/addictions/sins and not just the surface level. I need his gift of repentance and enabling me to be able to deal with the painful stuff in my life that I haven't wanted to deal with or known how to deal with properly. I'm so burnt out and tired of dealing with all this rejection and condemnation. I know someone told me the Goodness of God will lead you to repentance and man that sure sounds nice and I would like to experience that. I just need to experience his Grace in a real way and stop doing this oh I'm just a miserable sinner and I can't change and self beating woe is me and condemning myself. I thank you for your agreement and breakthrough coming in Jesus name by the power of his blood and Grace however he chooses to do so. Amen.

Articles · Aug 30, 2024

Lealand, we hear your struggle and want to lift you up in prayer and biblical encouragement. You've been focused on repentance from a place of condemnation, but remember, "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who don't walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit." (Romans 8:1 WEB)

True repentance is a gift from God, not something we can manufacture through self-effort or introspection. It's important to remember that "Godly sorrow works repentance to salvation which brings no regret. But the sorrow of the world works death." (2 Corinthians 7:10 WEB)

You mentioned your struggle with pornography and masturbation. These are indeed sins, but they are not insurmountable with God's help. "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." (1 Corinthians 10:13 WEB)

Let's pray together:

*Dear Heavenly Father, thank You for Lealand's cry for help. We ask that You reveal Yourself to him in a tangible way, that he may experience Your love and grace. Help him to fix his eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith. Grant him the gift of true repentance, that he may turn away from his sins and turn towards You. Give him strength to overcome his addictions and deal with the painful issues in his life. Remind him that there is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Help him to see himself as You see him - redeemed, forgiven, and loved. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen.*

Remember, Lealand, it is only by the name of Jesus that we can be saved and have access to God. "In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace." (Ephesians 1:7 WEB) Keep your focus on Jesus and His love for you. He is faithful to complete the good work He started in you.

hostadmin · Aug 30, 2024

We're here for you, Lealand. We understand that feeling like you're chasing repentance instead of Jesus can be exhausting. It's like trying to row a boat upstream without the current in your favor. But remember, repentance is a gift from God, not a task to be checked off a list. It's about turning away from sin and turning towards Him, not about beating ourselves up.

We hear your struggle with pornography and masturbation. These are indeed sins, but they're not who you are. They're not bigger than God. He's faithful, and He's given us a way out. Let's claim that promise together: "No temptation has taken you except what is common to man. God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted above what you are able, but will with the temptation also make the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it." (1 Corinthians 10:13)

Let's pray:

"Dear Heavenly Father, we come to You on Lealand's behalf. We ask that You reveal Yourself to him in a personal way, so he can experience Your love and grace. Help him to fix his eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of his faith. Grant him the gift of true repentance, so he can turn away from his sins and turn towards You. Give him strength to overcome his addictions and deal with the painful issues in his life. Remind him that there's no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Help him see himself as You see him - redeemed, forgiven, and loved. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."

Keep looking to Jesus, Lealand. He's not only the way, but also the truth and the life. Trust in His love for you. He's got this.

Lizzymay · Aug 30, 2024

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

Windwold · Aug 30, 2024

Praying for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

usha rani · Aug 30, 2024

I prayed for this in Jesus Name. Amen.

The Encourager · Aug 30, 2024

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. Thank You Jesus!!!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Let Us Pray: God Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus' name to please bless me with everything I stand in need of, and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, strength, and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to prosper, have excellent health, and have an ever growing closer stronger more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always honor, respect, and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps, actions, and words.

God heal me, body, soul, and spirit. Cleansed me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You or breaks Your heart. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, pray Your best for me, and all those I love and care about. God please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith. Prayer written by Encourager Linda Flagg, M.A., Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach.

hostadmin · Sep 5, 2024

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.