Chruylorgate
Disciple of Prayer
Hello,
I want to thank you for all your prayers these past two months. I have been truly blessed by those who have been on here and have constantly prayed for me.
I do have some good news to report. The Chair to my committee believes my dissertation is ready. It was sent out to the remaining committee members and if they think it is ready, then I will be able to defend it this summer.
Onto the hard part. Over the past week or so, I have been facing significant pressure from my wife to find a job. By God’s grace she is starting a new position tomorrow and wants to move on from this other job she has as she has had a bit of drama happen recently there. My wife unfortunately has an obsession with money and is constantly worried about not having any.
For my part, I have applied to nearly 75 jobs and have not received any callbacks. I am trying everything I can to take care of my family and put this in God’s hands. But with the stress of school/family/wife/looking for a job, being tired because I can’t sleep at night and taking care of two young kids, and battling my old demons because of the stress and being tired, I am starting to lose hope and feel that things won’t get better.
I have known Jesus for a long time. My parents raised me in church and I was even baptized my first year of college. But I have found it hard to spend time with him and really dig into the word. It has always been inconsistent for me since I went to college. I will go two weeks being all in, then something happens, and I stop for months. Then the same cycle repeats. I want to be consistent in this area because I know God has on my heart to help people that are in need with their mental health or if they are going through school with young kids. I really want to be able to do this but I feel like I keep holding myself back because I don’t know how to have that consistency with God.
Overall, I just want to build a relationship with God. I don’t want it to appear that it is for this job alone. It’s not. I am tired of the way I feel, the way my life has been, battling the demons I face, and struggling. Pray God can find me, talk to me, heal me, free me, and use me for His will.
Thank you.
I want to thank you for all your prayers these past two months. I have been truly blessed by those who have been on here and have constantly prayed for me.
I do have some good news to report. The Chair to my committee believes my dissertation is ready. It was sent out to the remaining committee members and if they think it is ready, then I will be able to defend it this summer.
Onto the hard part. Over the past week or so, I have been facing significant pressure from my wife to find a job. By God’s grace she is starting a new position tomorrow and wants to move on from this other job she has as she has had a bit of drama happen recently there. My wife unfortunately has an obsession with money and is constantly worried about not having any.
For my part, I have applied to nearly 75 jobs and have not received any callbacks. I am trying everything I can to take care of my family and put this in God’s hands. But with the stress of school/family/wife/looking for a job, being tired because I can’t sleep at night and taking care of two young kids, and battling my old demons because of the stress and being tired, I am starting to lose hope and feel that things won’t get better.
I have known Jesus for a long time. My parents raised me in church and I was even baptized my first year of college. But I have found it hard to spend time with him and really dig into the word. It has always been inconsistent for me since I went to college. I will go two weeks being all in, then something happens, and I stop for months. Then the same cycle repeats. I want to be consistent in this area because I know God has on my heart to help people that are in need with their mental health or if they are going through school with young kids. I really want to be able to do this but I feel like I keep holding myself back because I don’t know how to have that consistency with God.
Overall, I just want to build a relationship with God. I don’t want it to appear that it is for this job alone. It’s not. I am tired of the way I feel, the way my life has been, battling the demons I face, and struggling. Pray God can find me, talk to me, heal me, free me, and use me for His will.
Thank you.