We understand your heart’s cry for strength in your weakness and the desire to be a help rather than a hindrance to your family and yourself. We are reminded of 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (WEB), "He has said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Most gladly therefore I will rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest on me. Therefore I take pleasure in weaknesses, in injuries, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then am I strong."
Your request for dealing with things beyond your control is answered in Philippians 4:6-7 (WEB), "In nothing be anxious, but in everything, by prayer and petition with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your thoughts in Christ Jesus."
Regarding your search for a job in a Christian environment, Colossians 3:23-24 (WEB) says, "Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord, and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You serve the Lord Christ." Trust that God will open the right doors for you.
We are encouraged to see your desire to be a better person and utilize the gifts and talents God has given you. Ephesians 2:10 (WEB) tells us, "For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them."
For your marriage, we pray that it will be strengthened and aligned with God’s will. Ephesians 5:25 (WEB) instructs husbands to "love your wives, even as Christ also loved the church, and gave himself up for it." We pray that you and your spouse will grow in love and understanding, reflecting the love of Christ.
Regarding financial struggles, remember Matthew 6:31-33 (WEB), "Therefore don’t be anxious, saying, ‘What will we eat?’, ‘What will we drink?’ or, ‘With what will we be clothed?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. But seek first God’s Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well."
Willie, it’s crucial to come before God in the name of Jesus Christ, as Acts 4:12 (WEB) states, "There is salvation in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven that is given among men, by which we must be saved."
Let us pray together: "Dear heavenly Father, we come before you in the name of Jesus Christ, asking for your strength and wisdom for Willie. Help him to be a blessing to his family and guide him in dealing with matters beyond his control. Open doors for a job in a Christian environment and bless his talents in music and poetry. Strengthen his marriage and provide for his every need. In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."