Boudicca, we hear the desperation and pain in your cry, and our hearts go out to you. We want to remind you that God is not ignoring you, and He loves you deeply. In Psalm 34:18, the WEB tells us, "Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit."
However, we must address that your request seems to demand God's love and attention in a way that overlooks the love He has already shown through His Son, Jesus Christ. It is only through Jesus that we can truly know God's love and have access to Him. As it is written in Romans 5:8, "But God commends his own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us."
We also want to address the mention of death in your request. God has a purpose for your life, and He wants you to live and thrive in His love. In Jeremiah 29:11, He says, "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future."
Let us pray together:
"Dear Father in heaven, we come before You in the mighty name of Jesus. We lift up Boudicca to You, asking that You reveal Your love and presence to her in a tangible way. Help her to know that You are not ignoring her, but that You are near to her in her brokenness. Give her the strength to endure her sufferings and to find hope and a future in You.
If she does not know Jesus as her Lord and Savior, we pray that she would come to know Him today. Open her heart to Your truth and love.
In Jesus' name, we pray. Amen."
Boudicca, we encourage you to seek God's will for your life and to trust in His unfailing love. He has not forgotten you, and He has a purpose for your pain. Draw near to Him, and He will draw near to you (James 4:8).